And for but the grace of God go I

Have, or I guess, had a friend that I considered a someone whom I was close with. We were good friends back in the 80`s early 90`s, drifted apart and reconnected about a year ago. She is a good person with what I thought was a heart of gold. We would talk at least weekly, emails a couple times a week and Im daily. About a month or 2 ago she stops returning my calls, doesn't respond to my emails, ignores my IM`s. I have left messages saying that I have no clue whats wrong and to please let me know why she is obviously upset with me. No responses. Very odd. Very sad. She knows my crazy story and has been very supportive. Sad to lose someones friendship that you valued, especially when that person cant even tell you why. But such is life.
Still feeling like shit. I had to borrow $ from my neighbor, who kind of knows my deal, so I am going to the doctor later this morning. Need to be at work by 2:30 and wont get out until around 11:00pm. No way I am well enough for that but I cannot afford to lose more $ being out sick, so I will simply need to tough it out. As is I lost 8hrs on Saturday b/c I was sick.
Its tough to live this way. I have a couple of close friends that I feel I can totally confide in and thank God for them. One I have known since I was 3 yrs old! Another who is just a sweetheart of a girl and while was never close with was an acquaintance in past (I did see her boobies once!) and I have recently reconnected with. I have friends that I enjoy talking to, but why go into my depressing tale of woe! Makes me sad recounting it!! I`m grateful for who I have in my life and I suppose I am still in the process of discovering just who is who in my life.