Once more unto the breach dear friends, once more..

Well here we go. After my disaster I emerged fairly battered yet intact, on the outside at least. One thing I discovered was the fire was out. I always had within me a very strong will. I was passionate. I didn't take shit from anyone. In business I was ruthless. I pillaged and plundered and played to win. Was very successful overall. I had an overwhelming desire, a need to succeed and would do whatever it took to do so. That was the fire. And it was fully extinguished. Life for the past year has been just going through the motions. I have had no fight in me. Jodi gives me shit, I don't stand up for myself. Career wise, I enjoy my job and did want to move up but have been a bit afraid because a move into management, the resurrection of my career, requires that fire to be burning bright and hot. I am confident in my abilities. I still play to win. But there is a part of me that is ambivalent. I have had to survive the past few years under the worst pressures imaginable. I have been strong. Is there anything left in me to handle the pressures ahead? Because the pressure will be intense. The expectations for the new store and cafe are extremely high. They expect the cafe operation, my operation, to lead the district if not region. That's going against Atlanta, Charlotte, Miami,etc.. I suppose one of two things will happen. I will do it and do it well or I will spin apart. I know myself and I do know that after surviving what I survived it would take a whole lot to blow me away. So I think I will do just fine.